Rotting x. X

Today is Sunday, but is Sooo Boring. Woke up at 10am, slack around watch TV. Around 3pm went to sleep again. Wake up at 6pm to have (BreakFast + Lunch + Dinner)...
Sunday is Soooo Boring for me! Don't really feel like going out cause weather is really BAD, will rather stay at home & ROT.

ANW, tomorrow is the last training with Coach before Competition,, OMG! 5more DAYs. Feel Sooo Nervous! Hope I don't Blur on that Day...
Don't Really Have Things To Post Today

I don't know why. everytime i read your Blog, I will feel_________!
But i told myself that i won't want this anymore.
Just read your Blog!
I feel sooooo useless, i want to help but i tried to stop myself.
Anw, you won't let me know or tell me. So forget about it.

I even asked myself, whether you are the type of girl for me.
I try to lie to myself with lies
Told myself, not to wait.
Told myself, i don't have feels for you anymore.
Told myself, i won't want to bother about you.
Told myself, to ignore you
Told myself, that i don't love you
Told myslef, you are nothing to me
Told myself, i will forget about you
Told myself, i will let this feeling fate away

BUT
The fact is, I Can't
Putting a Smile infront of you is to tell you i m OKIE
but i m not
Joking and fooling around, is trying to tell others i m OKIE
but, is just an act

OhMan, Why will i say all this things.
But one thing i know is, I m trying very hard to END it
trying not to be one EMO KIDDO anymore!
& all i can say is you are not WEAK!
a person that fall and can't stand up again, is a real failure
but
a person that fail and stand up even Stronger, is a real success.

Hope on day ME, YOU,YOU n YOU
we can find the path to Success!
instead of continuing the Path at FAILURE!